Posted by Mindy1718 on 2014/03/27 under Uncategorized There’s always got to be problems huh!!! Always being in the ghetto and having to deal with problems AND don’t forget how one thing after another comes up!Why the f*** does this always f***ing happening to me or just my family in general. It seems so unfair but I do get that it’s not our whole fault. We grew up the hard way and we all know that we either mess up and keep doing it or we mess up and keep on with life. I don’t necessarily know where I fit in here but I have to choose. I get bored often and hookah isn’t that bad in my opinion but I stopped. I have about 23 nephews and nieces but they aren’t all related to me now. All my six sister had kids from the ages of 14-18. I still am not pregnant and I’m hopefully graduating high school but I don’t know yet entirely. I hate school work but you can’t really forget now that every job are requiring high school diplomas. Sucks major ass but you have to do it. Recently something happened in the family that we all decided that we have to keep quiet about it. It’s very natural that when one thing happens, the whole family all of a sudden knows. It’s a good thing then a really annoying thing once you get in trouble. I have a brother who I haven’t seen when I was eight to my junior year of high school then I found out that he was a mess. This family gets into crappy s*** and we end up getting over it or so they think. What I want is to live a life where I want to see the world and do things that are different even if I do things that I can get in trouble with. My goal at this point is to finish the life I have in boarding high school, get a job right after, and live on my own until there is someone that could help me. For now, I know that I have to stay home knowing that I’m the counselor and helper of the family. NO LIE!!! People come to me for help but I can’t really ask for the same in return. It’s how it usually is… I can’t comprehend this way of life but I always have to find the answers in my own way. I don’t like it sometimes and I do like it because of my personality. I like change and I don’t, I like this hobby and yet, I want a different one, I don’t like this food and I like it now, I love kids yet, maybe another time, I want to see the world, but I have to take care of family, and where does my mind leave me? It leaves me confused most of the time and I never know what to do with it sometimes. I have not yet anyone to talk to about my problems either which kind of depresses me… I just wish that there was someone who was willing to listen to me for free… I’m done with counselors having to say that everything is secret when in fact, they do tell your family what is going on. Those ASSES!!! Whatever, I have a lot on my mind and I really just want to let it go but I do need someone to talk to. PLEASE, ANYONE OUT THERE TO TALK WITH ME???
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Hey look, we all have to go through crazy sh!t in our lives. I understand where youre coming from. Im probably a couple years older than you but I’m like the counsellor when sh!t happens in my family. It feels like a burden sometimes. When I was younger I didnt know what I wanted to do with my life, my mind would change like every other day. Theres only one solution though. You have to make yourself a plan! Think about what kinda job you want to do, then STICK TO IT. This will give you the stability you need in your life. All the BS you go through now will make you a stronger person in the long run than somebody whose brought up with a silver spoon in their mouth. It helps build charachter. But you have to help build your charachter by yourself too. Hope this helps. Head up.
My other problem is to have someone to actually talk to about these worries and doubts that I always have because simply… I don’t really have anyone to talk to about them, especially when all people do is give me more questions that I wonder about.
o.o you know…I honestly feel the same way as you Mindy. It’s as if I can’t really talk to anyone about stuffs without them really wanting to listen…but yet…I’d do the same for any and everyone else in a heartbeat. And hmm…I’m probably a couple of years younger than you…But yes. The anon is right. You do have to stick to a plan.
Hmm…I wish that I could be that person that was able to be there for people like you that just kinda need a release. It just kind of bothers me that when those people that need to talk can’t, then they shut everything in..just sometimes wishing for someone to come along and help and stuffs…